Woohoo! I finished the major edits on book three of my Music For the Heart Series, Risk Worth Taking. It's off today to my editor for round two. This was quite an undertaking revision wise. When I first received the script back and saw all the suggested changes, I literally shut down. I felt beyond overwhelmed.
I gave myself a break - as in a few weeks!
During that time I doubted my competence as a writer. Negative self-talk had a field day with my mind.
Then one morning I woke up and told myself, "I got this. I can do it."
Was it easy? No.
Did I want to quit multiple times? Yes.
Basically, I wanted to say, F*** it.
But I didn't. I had put too much heart and soul into creating the characters and their love story to not share it with others. And more importantly, to prove to myself that I could accomplish the task and get it done right. If that required hours upon hours of my time, then so be it. I didn't come this far to give up.
Isn't that true in many facets of our lives? It would be so much easier to give up when things get tough but where would that lead us? The things dearest to us require the most amount of time, attention, and effort: relationships with family and friends, our passions - those things that drive us internally, the list goes on.
So with a sigh of relief, I am ready to move forward and get these manuscripts wrapped up and ready for publication. A new challenge altogether since my first three books went through a publisher.
It's fine, though. Like life, this new chapter will be a learning process and you know what? I'll figure it out. I always do, no matter what I'm faced with - good and bad.
I truly believe we can get through all of life's happenings with the love and support of others, but first and foremost, with our belief in ourselves that we got this. For me, it also includes my strong belief in a higher power guiding me. Either way, whatever you believe, the crucial thing is tell ourselves we got it even if our thoughts tell us otherwise.
Here's to fighting against negative self-talk!